Breaking point

The shit has finally hit the fan. Just got word that funding for our website project will end July 1. As a matter of course, I've started looking on craigslist to replace it w/something else. This couldn't have happened @ a better time - I'm preparing to move, need to cough up $1950 for first/last/security for the new apt., & have barely touched taxes ($1400) or student loans ($35k +).

Time to face one of my greatest fears: living independently w/complete financial insecurity. These limiting beliefs have held me captive for far too long. Never thought I could develop a successful business or make money w/out having to rely on someone else for the bread & butter income.

Pure bullshit, & I know it.

Nothing is stopping me but ego disbelief in my full potential. Fuck the ego. Fuck the imaginary prison it trapped me inside for 32 yrs. Fuck the intense scarcity/lack, loneliness, guilt, anguish & remorse I suffered throughout. That punishment ends now.

I'm just doing - no more thinking. No more complacency. No more settling. No more lies. No more giving away my power to others. No more mediocrity - I'm so fucking over half-assing everything. It's a bloody goddamn joke.

To any naysayers, fuck you & the horse you rode in on too. You can blow me.
I just don't care anymore...I'm done w/this shit.

Done.

That is all.