Detachment, reprise

Here we go again...saw you-know-who in town today. These circumstances are like a bad dream which just keeps replaying itself. The difference is that I saw it coming this time. And won't take the bait, either. I worked way too long & hard to leave her behind before.

Lizzie's death pushed me right to the jagged edge of vulnerability - there was no avoiding it.

One of two things is necessary here:

A. closure
B. a serious distraction

So, what's it gonna be? Won't run that emotional gauntlet again - not fucking worth the pain I endured last time. Too much has already been lost...too many casualties suffered in this inner war.

Time for the Universe to put up or shut up.

Play it out, or lock it down. No more pretending.

I'm dropping the hammer now.

That is all.