Mission, part II

Focusing on the task @ hand, I'm currently searching for work to sustain me this winter. Meanwhile, I've also realized my core life perceptions must change (like 180 degrees). Viewing everything thru ego, I'm totally fucked right now. But seen f/Presence, no crisis truly exists...just a situation to be addressed.

For as long as I can remember, circumstances always dictated my decisions. I never actively manifested anything beyond what my ego desired. Accordingly, all physical forms coming f/that eventually disintegrated into disillusionment & emptiness.

My higher purpose - the healing path - means nothing w/out unconditional love as its creative source. I simply cannot be abundant without purity of intent.

WTF am I saying, you may ask?

In layman's terms: there's no way I can be successful in life w/out sharing love w/others.

Unconditional love is the key ingredient overlooked by The Secret's version of the Law of Attraction. You can create mountains of material wealth, but it has no true value unless shared w/others. FYI, abundance is something I've been working on intensively over the last 2.5 weeks. Have learned much too, especially about the underlying energy of intent & creation.

Almost all my creations before were based purely in ego, which automatically dictated disappointment &/or faliure in the end. Big surprise there.

Shifting perspective from scarcity/lack (ego) to abundance (Presence) is the primary goal now. Altho my manifestation became a bit stunted during the transition (like to the point I can't quite make rent this month). No worries - problem solved w/a few quick phone calls.

Soon I must choose whether to stay here over the winter or head south. The work scenario will more than likely dictate said decision. Would love to manifest a nice regular telecommuting gig (or several) during the interim. Yet another coal on the fire...

Remember the circumstances dictating my decisions? The tables have finally turned. My long stint of indecision is nearly over. Having already committed to a higher calling, I must now address sanity maintenance issues. Time to either stay & grind thru, head to Florida (again) or go somewhere completely different.

There's a great line in The Shawshank Redemption:

"Get busy living...or get busy dying."

Goddamn right.

That is all.