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Do I really belong here?

That question came up recently. This place, which I've forcefully adapted my life situation to for 24 yrs, doesn't seem to fit anymore. In the distant past, I resolved to chisel out a niche on Cape Cod. But things are different now...unless it can change as much as I have, there's no point anymore. Just like w/the relationships - fear is the root cause of my geographic stagnation.

Finally may be time to move.

Location? Blindfolded, dart to a wall map. The only prerequisites are:

- waves
- sun
- forest
- grounding
- youthful community
- spiritual connection
- plentiful work
- quiet

Pretty much sums it up. If I am supposed to stay here, it'll be split time - half the year on Cape, half somewhere else. New England winters are too long & harsh to weather straight thru. Have also reached my limit w/the old paradigm of waiting for something to happen. I must take action, & soon.

The first step is shedding those stale, outmoded aspects which no longer serve. They include unnecessary relationships, patterns, material items, beliefs, judgments, everything. Strained friendships are being culled, sentimental items sold or given away, old ego dreams abandoned. None of them holds any useful purpose to me now.

Time will tell if this place retains any value, either.

That is all.