Serendipity, interrupted

Back on the sandbar - not sure what the hell is going on, either. Things feel different, but I can't say why. Bloody strange...

Spent February in FL to escape, recharge & recuperate f/a long, hellish 2008. Mission accomplished. I feel 100% better than before. A gentle combination of vitamin D, surf, warm air & healthy food did me a world of good. Now, time for a fresh start. Seems like circumstances are also trying to align accordingly - something I don't remember before.

Logistically, the transition has been smooth so far. Also notice an energetic aspect constantly adjusting to accommodate my changing life path. That's as best I can describe it. Then there's the karmic aspect (which feels like everything is coming to a head somehow). For example: said option to help girl #1 break her longstanding negative relationship pattern.

My initial response?

No thank you.

None of my unconditional love for her was ever reciprocated. It just all eventually disintegrated into emotional pain & misery.

Not worth the waste of time...whatsoever.

No true obligation exists here; no karmic balance to restore. She consistently chose the lesson for herself. Nobody else forced her into it. Moreover, she chose to summarily walk away. This, after blithely manipulating & betraying me before.

The space she once inhabited is empty. I've vigilantly maintained that vacancy, save maybe a single candle lit to illuminate the darkness. It has become my temple of inner Stillness and shall remain as such - a dark, quiet & sacred place.

No trespassers allowed.