when did i become such an incessant grouch?
evidently 25 yrs on Cape Cod has finally rubbed off on me - oh joy. i'm now officially a New Englander by virtue of an unconsciously hardass, self-entitled & reactive attitude. goddammit, i didn't sign up for this shit.
see - exactly what i mean!
my whole demeanor changed so subtly over the last 20 yrs that i didn't even notice until just recently. suddenly, bang...i'm some kind of instant Masshole. okay, have to admit...this sucks. i never wanted to adapt so much here as to take on the regional puritanical every-man-for-himself struggle-is-the-key-to-happiness tough-shit-for-you mentality.
how do i stop it f/continuing?
easily - just exit the premises
another item added to the reasons to leave list (currently as long as i am tall).
blah de blah blah...
