searching for something
which never existed,
i finally acquiesce
there is no ideal
an imaginary partner
hidden in the shadows
of my dreams
has all but vanished
i no longer wait
for her silent
communicae
so many years
spent searching
so much blood,
sweat and tears
invested
in an empty quest
with no map,
destination
or purpose
why bother?
the ends
never justified
the means
but for a memory,
long lost
in akashic records
sealed by fear
and circumstance
don't know why
it ever made
that much difference
now i realize
it doesn't matter at all
empty heart,
open mind
